Beaches

Going to the beach tomorrow, I'm so excited. It should be fun.

Relationships

I might be using Michelle as a crutch so that I don't have a real relationship, because I already have one. Not really one, I mean how real can it be? I date, but no it can't be serious because I'm with someone. I think, I need to end it even though I don't want to. I want something real and solid and the thing with Michelle isn't. And, it can't be for right now.

Uncomfortable

How do you break the news? How do you say something that is true and hurtful? Do you bury it? Or do you own up to it? I am so open about somethings, except when it hurts people I love.

I wonder

I am grateful for my life, every up and ever down. I love what I have: my health, my friends, my family, and all that. I wonder though, what might have been. Where would I have been if I allowed myself to love (and love completely)? Would I be like my sisters? Would I have kids? Would I have had my heart broken many times? Or would I have found the love of my life? I have questions, but then I remember I am strong, independent, and doesn't need love to complete myself. Even knowing that I wonder.

Stock Classes

I am excited about going to the stock class. I'm kinda nervous going by myself, but in an excited sort of way. A part of me feels like I will meet people like me, who has taken the jump and want to invest and do business. We will see how it goes, but as of right now I am excited.

Hanging out with Mariane

Watching Gilmore Girls, hanging out with Xaiden, eating Rice Krispie treats delicious. Yummy, yummy! My writing block is also almost gone. Very good day.

I think I have a crush with this sweet man, a semi-serious crush. I don't know what to do about this. Oh well, I will just have to see where this is going. I'm not sure if I like him or am just attracted to him. It could be a mixture of the two, it is too soon to tell.