Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Movie Night
I forgot how good is Willow. I kind of realized somethings. Oh well, I realized how somethings can be one sided. It was a nice night though.
Daybreakers
Love the movie, perfect gore, good storyline, a little predictable but a great movie! Hanging out with Kelley, Kawai, Robin, Juanita and her family. It was a good night.
Friday, January 8, 2010
Crazy Olymics
Last week I did the crazy Olymics. Oh my god, it was so much fun! It was nice playing games, and hanging out with good friends. I found a good friend that night and I really don't want it ruined no matter what. Even if I have to let some feelings go I really don't want that friendship ruined.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
I'm not Broken
People would say that what happened when I was fourteen is the cause of my issues. I now know for certainty that is not true, I think I would be more messed up without it. However fucked up that is. Today, an hour or two ago my world hit a curve ball. I just found out some things tonight that makes me want to cry and cry and cry...
I think if I allowed myself the tears would not stop. I would be in a deep depression, become fat, cold, and uncaring. But as I learned when I was raped and when I was suicidal that if I just hold on, this emotion will end; I will be all right. I just have to deal with the right now: shed my tears, mourn what I lost, and accept what is, what isn't, and what could never be.
I have to understand and accept the failings of people, and even though you trust them they are human (just as me) with the same failings.
Apart of me has unhinged today, but it did not break me, as my rape did (and that did not last, I was eventually healed) I will be okay. I will be less trusting, at least for a little while. I have to let this bad emotion go as it is not good for me.
I will not let this destroy me. I will weep and scream, and a part of me that loves and trusts is wobbling, but not even that love and trust is not broken.
I am not broken and I haven't been for a while. I will not allow myself to be ever broken again.
I think if I allowed myself the tears would not stop. I would be in a deep depression, become fat, cold, and uncaring. But as I learned when I was raped and when I was suicidal that if I just hold on, this emotion will end; I will be all right. I just have to deal with the right now: shed my tears, mourn what I lost, and accept what is, what isn't, and what could never be.
I have to understand and accept the failings of people, and even though you trust them they are human (just as me) with the same failings.
Apart of me has unhinged today, but it did not break me, as my rape did (and that did not last, I was eventually healed) I will be okay. I will be less trusting, at least for a little while. I have to let this bad emotion go as it is not good for me.
I will not let this destroy me. I will weep and scream, and a part of me that loves and trusts is wobbling, but not even that love and trust is not broken.
I am not broken and I haven't been for a while. I will not allow myself to be ever broken again.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Hangover
Hanging out with friends, watching the movie the Hangover. I thought what a great movie! I had a wonderful time today, running errands, cleaning and watching a movie. A wonderful day!
I just thought I should capture this day and others. I really need to get a good camera to take pictures of days like this.
I just thought I should capture this day and others. I really need to get a good camera to take pictures of days like this.
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